Dear Abby,

I just have to say how proud I am of how well you did at your appointment yesterday! You were out of this world!!! The nurses kept saying, "That is the cutest little girl I have ever seen come through here!" and "Oh my! Just look at those eyes and smile!"

You cried and had a hard time when blood was drawn and with the other tests. But not two seconds after you were finished with them you were smiling and talking.  Grandma Johnson held you for the x-ray and you LOVED how cold the room was.  But you weren't as happy when they held you down for the picture.  You were so good for the doctors and stayed awake for the car ride there and home.

We'll get the results in three weeks.  Doctor Swinyard gave us the list of conditions you are being tested for so we can do our research.  Once we get the results I'll write to you and tell you about each one.

Nana and Papa Lee are camping this weekend.  We are hoping to go up tomorrow but are not sure if our check will be in on time.  Hopefully we'll make it! It'll be fun to get outside and teach you about trees and lakes.

Well, I'm off to bed now!!! I'm going to take pictures of tomorrow and describe them to you when we get home!

Lots of love,

Mom

Baby Girl,

I am beside myself with anxiousness right now. You're appointment is tomorrow...I don't know how I am going to get through it without your father there.  Grandma Johnson is coming, but it's just not the same.  Your dad has been there for ALL your appointments and his touch instantly calms me down.  But he has to work.  Things are tight until he can get his education, so he's pretty much banned from missing work. I wish, with every thing, that he could be with us tomorrow.

I want him to help kiss you better after all the blood work.  To kiss my cheek and tell me you're okay.  I am trying not to cry, but it just breaks my heart to see you have to go through so much.  I try to be strong. I heard a quote the other day.

"People weep, not because they are week, but because they have been STRONG for too long"

I feel like that a lot.  However, I pick myself up, wipe my eyes and smile.  I know that right now you need me the most.  A day will come when you can be on your own and you won't depend on me. But I know for at least 18 years you will come to me to kiss your scrapes and bruises, wipe your tears, and vent your boy problems.  And through all of these things you have to endure because of your disabilities, I will be there through it all.   I'll never leave you alone.  Not until you tell me you are ready for me to let go.

I am praying tomorrow goes swell! I have asked for many prayers, positive energy and grace from God.  Here's to hoping He hears our pleas!

I love you baby girl, and good luck tomorrow!

xoxo Mom

Dear Bugaboo,

Tonight when I was bathing your brother, you slid yourself off the couch and stood on your own. You were holding onto the couch for support and not me.  It was a tender moment. I watched you for a moment and in the middle of my thoughts you lost your balance and fell.  You cried for me. I dressed your brother and quickly held you close to my heart.  I was proud to see you being independent. In that small moment I watched you standing on your own, I knew that you would always try hard to be that way. And when you called out for me when you'd fallen, I knew that you know I'll always be here for you. I am proud of you, I cannot say it enough. :)

Also, I think you learned today NOT to bite your brother.  You leaned over, grabbed his foot and bit him! Instantly he reached out and pulled your hair.  Again, you cried for me and I helped you out of that situation. Maybe next time you'll think twice before attacking. You are waking up so I need to put you back to bed. I'll write more soon!

xoxoxo Mom

My Little Lady,

Oh sweet Abby! I am pretty much going out of my mind with excitement! You are progressing so fast in your walking!!! Holding my hands, you walked all around the house.  Even though you are very small in wieght and stature you are growing into quite the little toddler.

I know that one day you are going to be a little girl, a young woman and then eventually starting a family of your own.  I try not to think about this because I realize that when that moments comes for you I will be old. :)  I don't dread the days when you grow up and move out. One thing I learned from my past was to hold dear to your heart your loved ones, but don't hold them so close they suffocate. A person can lose children, spouses, and other family by doing so.  I am going to embrace your milestones with a smile, happiness and most likely tears. But I will never hold you back from what life has to offer you.

You'll get to experience everything you want to and can do.  The weather outside is absolutely gorgeous! The sky is as blue and soft as your diamond eyes and the sun is as warm and bright as your tender smile.  Tomorrow when Daddy is home we will all go for a walk and you will be able to feel the sun on your skin, hear the beautiful birds and enjoy the outdoors.

I almost got stung by a bee today! I went to check the mail and a bunch of bees flew at me from under the stairs!!! In the fist place, I am allergic to bees so that isn't good and second they really scare me.
Bees may be really pretty and good for gardens but their sting is mean and painful! Like when you get a shot, except it still hurts after awhile. Hopefully we don't come across and bees on our walk tomorrow!

Well it's bed time, so I am going to have to stop wiring. But I promise to write you again.

xoxoxo love Mom!